Again i'm now on the crossroads of my life with the same question where to go ? Living around with people with their laid on dreams/destinations making me ponder in and out every now and then.
The first similar experience was when i was preparing for my IIT Joint Enterance Exam(
JEE) , the day i cleared screening test(
preliminary test) , one of the major things going in my head was "
I don't want to graduate(manufactured) from IIT tagged as One More Mechanical, Computer Science, Electronics, Chemical Engineering or similar trades." I think i'm too crazy for such sincere and hard working trades.
Main Exam results came, i got through that also, before final counselling session again this thought started to continously bang in my head. I had no idea what to do. People would kill to get into IIT and here i was thinking of other possibilities(
one thought was surely of getting into NDA). Luckily (
or should i say , because of my poor ranking in main exam) i got into
B. Des. - Bachelor of Design . For people who don't know abt this,
hold on that thought -
this is nothing related to fashion design,interior design or somethign related to this :P. Go look out for
Product Design , Industrial Design, Communication Design , HCI , Usability etc. for related info abt the course. The day i got to know that i was being admitted to design course , i was really really happy and this feeling was much stronger than clearing the main exam itself.
And here i'm today, i would be graduating as
Industrial Designer in few months from now and have no idea watsoever about my days of 1 year ahead of this time.Few times i made myself think really hard to consider what i want to do , and for that i had to lure myself by saying like this,
"Ok what if the Genie asks you for what you want to do for living , what would you answer ?". The answers which i came up with were that random that now i feel ashamed of even thinking that.
Still my heart/head screams gently ,
"I want something different .."
and a voice from somewhere comes (
i guess its my goodwill genie:P)
"Not Again !!"
Freinds around me have started sewing their future into CAT, GRE and some have made it clear to crack into the top recruiters. Here i see people of different types :
- Who know exactly what to do (
One aim)
- Who just follow and try to prepare for everything following the trends of times and will choose on later on with the best possibilty.
- Others, (
whose no is very less) like me are still waiting for
God to come down on Earth and tell us what to go/opt for and start looking forward.
The people of second grouping majorly try to follow the first group people , cause they just want to
succeed(
read as :make money n live happily!), nothing else matters in their life. These two group starts off making snap judgements about the other persons around them for not choosing a
Definite path making the third group people eventually end up living this
imposed life, too much irritated from the
pricks of society,friends and even from the family. I don't remotely mean to say that they are wrong or right from my point of view, because i can make out that they are also human being and part of society that values its inhabitant based on the pre-defined definition of success,resulting in their thinking and comments there-upon.
What happens to the other third group people :
"Are they dead,alive or they found any other institution in life (certainly as i got B Des in IIT : which served and satisfied both -me n society) ?" still remains unanswered and maybe i will someday tell about what happens to one of them
OR maybe write again desperately justifying the reason
'Why i went for second option.'Disclaimer : No offense meant to the usual trades and realm of society. This is just another musings of a confused to-be-graduated student.
